But you’re not even worth putting in the effort to say it anymore…
I’m done.
“Your happiness is before you, not behind you! Cherish it.” <—— Cherish it, indeed…
Slowly, but surely, I’m getting feelings back… This robot will be conquered. I am feeling… Happy.
Oh, I like him so much… :)
For quite a long time now, I would ask myself the same question everyday… “What’s wrong, Savannah?” …today’s the first time I’ve actually answered back with “Nothing.” :)
One of my biggest fears is that I’ll never really get over you… I’ll just keep replacing you and replacing you to keep my mind preoccupied so I won’t have to think about what was lost. 3
I don’t know what is going on in my brain right now… Maybe if I just keep writing, things will start to come together and make sense. …maybe. I’ve been thinking about it… And I just can’t seem to find what I miss about you. I can’t even remember your face off-hand as well anymore… I used to think any other relationship would just be something to distract me from waiting for you to come back, but now I’m thinking otherwise. I need to move on. I just can’t get over the fact that I don’t miss you as much anymore… Maybe I haven’t for a while now. Maybe I just needed something familiar to hang onto and you were the easiest thing there. I still don’t have my closure, and I know I’ll always wonder if I ever cross your mind… And even as horrible as I feel it makes me? I still want that chance to hurt you back. :/ And as much as I want to talk to you…? I’m not holding my breath for it anymore. I can live without it now… There’s a lot I want to say to you, but for once? I actually WON’T post it on Tumblr…
1 note ...now let's hope my mind is done flip-flopping and I'll KEEP this frame of mind.
I can’t feel you here… So maybe this is where I need to be. …but where am I? And how long will I stay here…?
I’m gonna be sappy and lame for a moment. Please excuse me for it… I just watched “Rio” a little bit ago. It was quite a cute movie… And it surprisingly actually touched me a little. For some reason, I take my last name quite seriously… I’ve always felt like a “Bird”. That name was given to me for a reason… Why would I change it? But as much as I love my last name… It depresses me. I’ve heard of a flightless bird, of course… But a wingless one? I know I’m not making any sense right now… I’m just kind of rambling. The point is? I feel so grounded… I feel so confined. Maybe I’m just like Blue though… Maybe all I need is that one kiss to “feel it in my heart” so I can finally open my wings. Maybe… Maybe I just need that one person to finally make me feel like I can fly.
I need an escape… Please just take me away from here. I want to leave it all behind…
It’s not surprising, actually… That it came back, that is. I’ve been getting more and more miserable as the days drag on… There’s nothing specific that starts it. And it seems as though there’s no way for me to stop it… This gut-wrenching feeling of emptiness is becoming more than I can stand. I feel so lonely lately… Yet, I want to remain alone.
